Sociopath – Someone You Know?

Sociopath Inner Traits –

Charming

Delusional

Never Wrong

No Empathy

Plays the Victim

Lies and Cheats

Twists Your Words

Has To Win

GasLights

 

Does this sound like anyone you know? I know a couple of men that fit this scenario! I am so relieved to be past them, but I share my experience to help others to help them out. If I could out them I would, but that would be revenge and would indicate that I am not over the relationship, which I am.

 

Thanks for sharing Sue Fitzmaurice

Is It Wrong To Say That Size Does Matter?

Damnit! Size does matter. I don’t want a puny dick and someone talking shit that is unable to deliver! Damnit! I want to be fucked hard from the front and back. Told what to do! Fuck, take control of me! Man-handle my black ass! Dominate me and give me the best oral ever!

I am not going to lie! It’s great with a dick that is the perfect size and please don’t fuck me like a jack rabbit! I want slow and go with the motion. Follow my lead, and fuck me just right.

Oral

Oral

Lick and suck my pussy hard, but then not so much.

Grab my titties and have your way with them! Squeeze my nipples and oh my gosh, I will cream all over the place.

Is it so wrong to say that size does matter? To me yes it does and I will take one of these to go please! 🙂

Soft

Hard! Can I please have this to go with a side of oral?

Timing and Opportunity!

Do you believe that life is about timing and opportunity? I had become reacquainted, fell in love and almost married someone and the timing just wasn’t right. He was in a bad relationship where his relationship with his wife had became strained. She filed for divorce and their marriage ended. However, my marriage was equally as bad and you can imagine where the story is headed. He attended therapy with his wife, and I with my husband. Neither of us wanted to divorce our spouses; him because of their children and he loved his wife, and I because I loved my husband but I discovered that the female gender was not my husband’s type.

I had suspected that my husband was either just a feminine man or he was bisexual. He denied both and for years our marriage was filled with my trying several methods to satisfy him sexually to no satisfaction. However, my friend and I started a relationship that was strictly sexual in nature to keep our relationships in tact, as neither of us wanted to be divorced. He loved his wife and there were children involved. and I did not want to be divorced.

It was great and very satisfying until our feelings were deeply involved. We were what each other needed, emotionally and physically. That can appear to be very selfish, but in all actuality neither parties involved in our relationships were invested. Who were we kidding? No one! Resulting in all parties involved getting divorced.

After the divorce, he mentioned that he wanted to take the relationship to an exclusive level. While I really liked the idea of that because I had become dependent upon him for so much and he I. It really was the next steps of progression in our friendship. It felt good! His babies are just amazing, and I love them so much; just as if they are my own. But was that the proper thing for us? We were friends and cared deeply for one another, that in actuality we should have waited until he cleared and worked through his divorced and healed and me as well. Because what we did was to head full steam ahead with both parties being damaged; him more than me and we crashed and burned, devastating both of our lives.

We really are good for each other, but he is a narcissist and it was so painful to be in a relationship with him. But part of me wondered if we could have made it if the timing had been different and if the healing had happened on both sides. I often thought back to a book that I read around Timing and Opportunity called Persuasion by Jane Austen. It’s about two people meeting and they ultimately separate because the timing wasn’t right and they come together again in the future. I am a hopeless romantic.

I write to heal and I do lots of reflecting. I have moved on with my life and have met some really great men! I enjoy them and I feel really light with them. No heavy stresses from their past creeping up. At the moment, I am getting to know three seemingly good men, and they are all really sweet, kind and actively pursuing me. I wonder, if it is because I am not really interested in them nor interested in dating them. The chase is intense. What I have realized though, if I do not start dating, I will not actually truly know that I have moved past him.

I know I can mention his name, and have people tell me that they have seen him out with women and it does not affect me. I have seen him with a woman that he dated and it did not bother me. Therefore, I feel like I have moved on. However, we have not spoken since the breakup and part of me wonder how I will feel having a conversation with him. Will I find him heavy, or will I see that he has healed? Or he has come to appreciate me? How will I feel after the conversation? That is something I often wonder about.

I think back about the great times of the relationship and what I miss most. I miss the good times that he and I shared alone, the times with the children and oh yea, the sex. When we had good times, they were really good. We were fully connected and the kids were so happy. They thrived and we were a happy family. During those times, the sex was good, I hadn’t given him my best yet. I knew how to make him cum on demand. I loved that!  I loved having that sexual power over him, it was quite enjoyable.

I love sex very much, but I love that I learned his body so well. I knew the right movements to get certain responses from him and how I could make him cum! He would always say to me; “Your pussy is so tight!” or “Oh my god!” He would bite his lips! Just thinking about it is making my pussy throb. I knew he liked that, and I always thought to myself that you haven’t seen anything yet. Just wait until I start milking you, you are going to loose your  mind. Then when I lift him with my pussy, he is going to go crazy!!!! But we never got to experience that we broke up.

Before our trip to Florida, I made some purchases to take our sex life to the next level and I know he would have been so amazed! We openly discussed our likes and dislikes and how to please one another. So for me, it was a matter of time before he got the full sexual explosion. I was really looking forward to it. Our sex life was good like I said; he had just gotten his new job! The kids were in a really good place! Life was good when his EGO – the narcissistic side of him showed up, and it did not happen. His alter EGO stepped in.

So I am sitting here wondering…. is it because our timing wasn’t right? Or just because the love isn’t there anymore or wasn’t there and he was using me to move past his divorce? Was I the rebound? I think I should talk with him so I am clear in myself and I don’t hurt the guys that I am seeing right now because my inability to fully decide what I want.

Life is about Timing and Opportunity! Don’t let it pass you by!

Dominate Me! I Just Discovered I Like It!

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This image was so beautiful and safe that I had to pull it from one of my followers blog and write about it!

Now in all actuality, it could be interpreted multiple ways, but because I am exploring domination, I totally love it.

My pleasure senses just kicked into high gear.
As the man I love and desire is getting near.
The sunlight is starting to set.
Till dawn and the moon begins to crest.
I can’t help but feel aroused.
Pleasure is about to be shroud.

We are get ready to play, and lay, and explore until our body quivers.
Quivers uncontrollably, until we start to go insane.
Am I afraid?
I am afraid!
He’s not afraid.

This is new for me.
This is new for him.
Giving up control you see.
Him giving up control to me.
You now control me and I obey.
I now control you and you obey.
Well, at least for today.

I am in the heat of desire as you tell me to undress!
You pull out a latex catsuit, pumps, and lay out handcuff, whips.
There is a swing hanging from the ceiling and a chair with stirups in the corner!
I smile, you smile, and we smile together for what awaits us.

You are a sensual lover who liked to take your time.
It is truly about the pleasure of the both of us.
I please you and you please me.

Exploration of each other in our nakedness.
That is just fabulous as I explore your strongness of your cock.
It feels so strong, hard, and firmly erect.
I can’t wait any longer, and I take you in and suck, lick and stroke
you with my lips and down my throat.

You are shaking with pleasure and you loose control.
The urge to take me and fuck me hard is so intense in you.
Language is foreign and not available at the moment.

You lay me back and part my legs and express your love for me with your tongue.
Oh my gosh! Oh my gosh! Baby, Baby, don’t stop baby! Yes, suck my pussy, lick my clit!
Up down that clit, round and round that clit! Tongue in and out my pussy! Work it baby!
Oh, go baby! Don’t stop baby!

Wait! I say to him…. I want to dress for you.
I slip into my latex for him and demand he lay down!
I then control him.

He likes it.
Now his turn.

He tells me to come to him!
I obey.
He pushes me to my knees!
I obey.
He sticks his cock in my mouth!
I obey.

I suck and lick until he is ready to explode.
He pulls away.
Picks me up and puts me in the swing.

He gets on his knees.
He pleases me.
He sticks his cock in my pussy and fucks me.

I plead with him to fuck me more!
I ask him to fuck me harder!
He complies.

I ask him to send me to bliss please sir?
He says no! I have to wait until he’s ready!
My vibrator comes out and he places it on my clit.

I scream in pleasure and ask sir, do I have permission to cum please?
He said no!
I have to wait…

Pleasure is buring inside.

I said oh my gosh, I need to cum!
Please let me now!

He takes me and starts fucking me hard.
Fucking me really hard to where I just explode!
He then explodes and his orgasmic bliss is shared with me.

Wow! I allowed you and I enjoyed it!

Intimacy/Partnership!

The best way to use your vibrator

This is so intimate! How HOT!!!! is this? Both are receiving great pleasure from her pleasure.

Men don’t fear the vibrator! Let go of the mindset that you have to make her cum! You don’t! She allows herself to be free enough so that you both do it together.

One can’t happen without the other with a woman. When she feels safe she will allow herself to fully be free and will cum like running water. At least that is how it works for me.

Her pleasure is your pleasure, so sit back and enjoy the ride. How hot it is to watch her being pleasured, right???

Enjoy the ride, it is great for both of you!

UUmmmm!

I Feel the Heat From The Top Of My Head All The Way Down To My Feet

As I lay down, you look into my eyes, I feel your heat. You smile at me, and take my hand.
We intertwine our fingers, and you kiss my neck. I feel the heat from you lips all the way down to my feet.

There is no pain as something hot inside me begin to furl. My chest palpitates and my heart beats faster and faster.

You run your fingers down my skin and it is moist. My face is no longer smiling, instead, it is in intense pleasure from your touch

I don’t want to explode just yet from the feel as you stroke my face, neck, arms, breast, and work your way down to my wet spots deep inside.

The heat pulses and pour through  every orifices of my body, all I can do is inhale and exhale, as I am in ecstasy.

Who is in charge of this pulsing, throbbing and thrusting because at this very moment. It is not me! My body is taking charge of its pleasure.

All  can say is aaahhhhh! Bbbbaaaabbbbbyyyy! Don’t stop Superman.

I continually reach to grip tighter to whatever is in reach

My body shaking with intensity

Breathing quickly, eyes unable to focus, lips unable to mutter a coherent sentence.

My mind is partly cloudy, I can’t think, my brain is completely out of focus

Again I touch of my skin and it feels so moist, sticky but incredibly soft

Come close and taste, as I explode in ecstasy. What a delicious taste! What a beautiful scent.

Orgasmic Pleasure