You mentioned something the other day that really struck a chord with me and I thought I’d elaborate. You said that you feel like I’m proud to have you as a part of my life, and that’s very, very true.
Maybe you already realize this, but I wanted to tell you that you inspire me. You give me thoughts and raise my ambitions, and make me want to realize my full potential in many areas of my life. Those passions to excel have been dampened over the past several years, and the way you make me feel really does my heart good because it brings those happy thoughts of anticipation and ambition back to life. It’s not like I want to excel to impress you either, it’s more personal than that. (Like I could impress you like that anyway? Please… 🙂 ) You somehow remind me on some deep instinctive level what I used to want from life, and you make me look forward to the struggle to reach those goals. I’m happy to talk with you about them, happy to share them with you, and happy to keep you apprised of my little successes one day at a time. It feels wonderful to know that someone so special to me cares about me, and about my goals and future happiness; that’s a feeling I’ve missed for a very long time. Knowing that I have someone so special that cares about me so deeply is a tremendous source of pride for me too.
It’s not a loud or boastful pride either. For one thing I don’t really express pride that way, and for another, it’s not like we can go shouting about our relationship from the mountaintops. It’s more of a quiet pride, and that’s the type that makes me happiest. It’s the sort of pride that I quietly reflect on when I have moments to myself, when I think about you and us and about how happy I am to have you as a part of my life. It’s the sort of pride that gives me a sly smile every time I think about our “big secret”, and that makes me want to celebrate our “anniversary” on the 9th of every month.
I love you and I’m proud to say it. I’m proud to feel it, and proud of the feelings you give me.
See you soon, Lovergirl.