Never to Exist Again

Relationship is about forgiveness and compromise

Nothing that you want to despise

Things like ogling at other women

Makes it hard for us in the end

There is nothing as painful as heartbreak

Leads to love straying away

Where’s the trust

Where did the love go

Was the magic lost or was it all for show

Trust, love, truth was never present with you

Especially how you lied today oppose to the truth

Denial is a pretty sad thing

Which is why we had to end

The words you wrote, was that pretend

Now we are what you consider has been

Instead of talking to me your best friend you lean on another

Why is that?

Because I was not in the mood to talk about it

Not fair, I have every opportunity to think thing though

Then you lied and went to lunch with another

All the while telling me how much you love me and want to remain with me

Liar

Cheat

Untrustworthy

Taker

These all describe what you represent to me

Done

Over

Never to exist again

Think of You

I think of you, the way you touched me

I think of you, the way you kiss me

I think of you, the way you loved me

I think of you, making love to me

I think of you, the plans for our future

i think of you, what was to be for us

I think of you, our wedding in Virginia

I think of you, taking my hand in marriage

I think of you, waiting for me at the alter

I think of you, saying I do til dead do us part

I think of you, on our honeymoon

I think of you, making love on the beach until the moon and stars

I think of you, playing chess matches for special treatment – wink

I think of you, making dinner everyday forever

I think of you, forever

I think of you, I miss you

I think of you, I love you

Where the Fault Lies

I am angry with you for not fighting for me, fighting for us

I am angry with you for saying that I have drama, but not being able to describe what my drama is

I am angry with you for taking my new life with you and the babies away for me

I am angry with you for not acknowledging your fault in our demise

I am angry with you for not putting our relationship ahead of your desire to be right

I am angry with you for not putting us in front of your ego

I am angry with you for asking me to forgive you, but your unwillingness to forgive me

I am angry with you for all the times I forgave you, and you continued to make me wrong

I am angry with you for your fear

I am angry with you because I still love you

I am angry with you because I cannot stop loving you

I am angry with you for reaching out to me but only because you had noone else

I am angry with you for treating me second fiddle

I am angry with you for being able to say your sorry

Iam angry with you for picking someone else

I am angry with you for not picking me

I am angry with you for telling me you care about me

I am angry with you for not showing me you love and care for me

I am angry with you for lying to me

I am angry with you for not being with your best friend

I am angry with you for not marrying me, your best friend

I am angry with you for wanting to have more than one

I am angry with you for wanting to compare me to another

I am angry with you for taking another lover

I am angry with you for no longer being in love with me

I am angry with you for not planning to marry me

I am angry with you for not mournig our baby with me

I am angry that we do not have a 6 month old baby together

I am angry that some things don’t affect you

I am angry with you

Birthday Love

This birthday will be,
(Just wait and see)
The start of more magic
Between you and me.

The years full of shine,
Laughs flowing like wine,
And sharing and caring;
Your life spent with mine.

So sit back my dear,
More joy comes this year.
I’m glad we’re together.
And I love that you’re here.

Love,
Kevin

The Man You Deserve Is The Man I AM

Warmth, and love.
Like wrapping my heart in a blanket.
Worshipingat your side as you work and
Your smiling glances let me know I’m the one.
I’m the apple of your eye.
I feel it now, and 
I’m not afraid.
I finally believe it’s true.
Finally.
Yes, the intent and delight
Finally,
it made it through my thick skull.
Finally,
I’m feeling as special as I truly am.
Finally.
I get it.
It’s funny now, my focus has changed.
I’ve redirected.
It’s gone from
“Am I worthy?”
to
“How can I deserve her?”
Perhaps it’s subtle
from several points of view
but to me the tilt
is profound.

I’m not worrying anymore if you’ll find a better man.
I’m concentrating on being that better man.
My woman need not search elsewhere if…
I can be what she needs me to be.